Sleepless nights&Endless mornings. Another set of facts about me. Thought you`d like to know.

1. I`m supposed to be asleep.
2. I have a curfew this summer.
3. I`m supposed to be doing our summer homework.
4. Instead, obviously, I`m busy blogging.
5. I`m addicted to my blog.
6. I love Hugh Jackman. Whoops. That wasn`t supposed to be there. Just saw a commercial with Hugh on it. Couldn`t help but let you know.
7. I can`t sleep.
8. I need my endless hours of Internet time which I can`t have.
9. I`m sneaking this blog entry.
10. I might just caught by my parents any minute now.

Why must I always end up in these kinds of sticky situations? Gah. @-) I want to use the Internet forever. I want to Twitter away `til I have a million&half followers. I want to blog `til I have no more to write (not possible!). I want to type on the computer until the letters fade and I`d have to rely on my memory to figure out which key to push. I want to conquer the world ! Hahaha. Okay. `Ve gone to far. @-) But honestly. I want my endless Internet back ! :( Can`t believe my parents signed up for a prepaid Internet connection that`s super lousy. Most of all, can`t believe I have to stick with it. Damnnit. >:)

*sigh*

Temptations are always around the corner. Question is, will you approach it? Another deep sigh escapes my lips. One question I always ask myself but always fail to produce an answer. Pathetic. But hey, it`s true. Even at the simplest things, I`m being tempted. Right now, even my diet`s being tempted. How lame is that? Can`t believe I almost got myself a serving of that rice a while ago during dinner. Argh. Why must I be tested so much? Hell ! I`m even tempted right now. And, don`t know if I should regret it or be proud of it, but I approached the temptation. Haha. Sin really makes you feel good, doesn`t it? Breaking rules gives that same feeling as well. Same feeling I have now. Haha. Plus, plus on that sleepless nights. @-)

Endless mornings. What can I say? They start so early, yet they end so late. Okay. I believe that I`ve lost track of what I was about to say and I can`t say anything that makes sense anymore. Haha. Maybe tomorrow. Sleep`s taking its toll. Finally. Rest is here to the rescue ! Blah blah blah. TBC tomorrow. ;)

Temptations&Resolutions. TEN FACTS ABOUT ME:
1. I am dying of hunger.
2. It feels as if my stomach is eating itself.
3. I think, rather know, that I`m fat.
4. I desperately need something to eat.
5. I am at a new diet.
6. Where can I get food?
7. I am writing this blog to occupy myself with other things and forget about my hunger.
8. I am thinking about waging war against good food. I am going to wage war against food.
9. I want to strangle my sister for tempting me with her lunch.
10. My resolutions are being tested by all these temptations.

Ohmygod. Why does being on a diet always become torture? Last night, with much sorrow and remorse, I had another resolve. NO MORE RICE. For one, I`ve so much carbs in my body right now that my daily exercise is even having a hard time burning it all off. I ate a slice of bread and corned beef for breakfast. I skipped lunch. Now, I am dying. Yey! Back to my old summer habits. Maybe, next time I blog, I`d be writing `bout eating ice all day long. Haha. But truly, I did that. No kidding. But what the hell. For the sake of getting thin.

Moving on. I can vividly feel my hands shaking from hunger... okay, forget that. Occupy yourself with other things. @-) @-) @-) But, for the sake of getting through my 70-minute exercise, I`d go eat a banana... regretfully. OMG. Why is getting thin always feel like going through hell? What the hell ! So, anyway. I`ve tried watching television to remove my thoughts from food but what channel does my brain choose to watch? Discovery Travel & Living. The show? Food Paradise. Haha. Now, isn`t that ironic? Can`t believe my brain is acting on its own ! I mean, just to satisfy itself with the thoughts of food. But what does it do to me? Hunger ! That`s what. Gah. Damnnit. SIGH. But anyway, I must rid myself of these dirty thoughts of food. To tell you the truth, the one thing on my mind is ONION SOUP. French cuisine. The last glimpse I had of food before I turned the TV off.

I can`t believe that my resolutions are being tested by all these temptations ! Why, oh why?! I need to get a life. =)) Now, off to the kitchen to get that freak banana and give myself some energy. God, help us all. @-)

My non-existent summer life.

Open eyes. Sit up. Open computer. Twitter away. STOP. Watch television. STOP. Twitter-ing. STOP. Watch TV. STOP. Play PSP. STOP. Watch more TV. STOP. Read Little Women. STOP. Take a bite of that brownie. STOP. Stare in space. STOP. Sleep.

Now, how pathetic can I be? :| WTH. Where the hell is my summer?! Locked away in this cage, sitting `til my buttocks hurt, and typing `til there`s nothing more to type. What have I been doing, you ask? NOTHING. Well, if you noticed, that`s my whole day up there. Revolves mainly on Twitter, TV, and PSP. Haha. I`m enslaving myself against the power of tech. =)) But who cares. There`s nothing to do, anyway. No more DVDs to watch. No interesting books to read. If only I knew how to commute then I`d be off to my cousin`s house having fun… but I don`t. Sadly, I`m a loser `cause I only know jeepneys and taxis from the television. I`m a little kid whose parents have spoilt with cars all the time. No commuting for me. Haha. Loser. :P :P But, WTH. When the time comes, I will. =)) But for now, I`d just keep fantasizing all the good things I`d be able to do if I`m at my cousin`s place. @-) @-) @-)

My whole body is asking for the beach. The hot sand. The TAN. I want to feel the thrill of summer, damn it. I`d beg and plead to go to the beach if I could but there`s no one to beg and plead to. My mom`s off to her own vacation with her friends from school, and my dad`s at work. Wee. To whom shall I beg and plead to now? ;;) Rumor has it that my mom`s arranging a trip for us… I just hope and pray that it`s true. Haha. My summer life is non-existent… FOR NOW. :>